Fact
I’ve been having sleepless nights. Many questions, and little answers, have manifested themselves in that already quite busy mind of mine. Is this a bad thing? Not necessarily, but only if the outcome is an eventual halt of the extremes my mind is suffering from at this time. I do not mind introspection or heavy questions…as long as these processes lead me to tangible results. Due to a lack of experience and insight however, these answers are less than forthcoming.
I am tired.
I am tired and I need sleep.
But I really can’t quite sleep.
Because I have questions and concerns, to which I have no answers. Or rather, the answers I have found do not please me to the extent that they should please me. Answers that are of little happiness are also of little functionality and answers of low functionality are poor answers entirely. Building upon unhappy answers to create a more pleasant tone is an option, so it seems, but I am currently rendered incapable of stretching the mind further. To find entirely new answers…well…I don’t know. And that, as you may have noticed by now…is exactly the problem.
In life the only thing that matters is happiness. What matters is that you can obtain the results that are most beneficial to your system…to live life the way you want to. Don’t be fooled by pop psychology that will make you believe that altruism does exist. It does not! Everything you do for others is what you want to do, caused entirely by innate processes in your right and left hemispheres. You don’t do things for others, you do things because you feel you must do them. A kind person then is the one motivated selfishly by the needs of those around him. A good lover then is he who cares for his girl out of his own need to see her happy. That is humanity. That is life. Everything that lives and has a will, will act accordingly.
So to not be happy then, or rather, to have unhappy prospects, is of no use at all to the individual. The ancient struggle of mankind is not between good and evil, it’s between happiness and misery. Einstein once said that if the facts don’t fit the theory, one should change the facts. Facts, by themselves, are subjective notions pertaining to a brain-perceived reality. So the facts about me that you may have might change if I rewire your brain a tad differently. A neuron here in stead of there and tadaa! That’s how fragile human perception actually is. The point is that “facts” are perceptions and perceptions are subjective. Subjectivity is open to debate, so facts are open to debate. Facts that can be changed do not fit the dictionary definition of facts at all. That is, assuming the facts open to debate are altered through that particular process. Which they often are…the world is flat, chickens can lay golden eggs and you can see the great wall of China from outer space.
The facts then, or rather the perceptions I have of myself…and other people have of yours truly should not be the guiding factor entirely. Happiness should be…and if this requires the shifting of perception then that is what I must act upon. I don’t even have to care about who I leave behind.
Let’s just hope that shift is possible.